Codex Pontifex

Good Idea: Having dinner with great friend from the past.

Bad Idea: Leaving 12yr old at home alone with homemade apple pie.

I have reached the point in personal enlightenment that learning how to make the perfect cup of tea seems like the next spiritual step for my life. Funny how the universe brings those with the right technology and experience at just the right time.

Giving up on one’s expectations of others is one of the toughest lessons a man can teach a child. Giving up on the expectations of one’s self is the toughest lesson a man can learn for himself.

I just want balance. I’m already high-strung as it is; I know this. But I thought life would settle, mesh, increase joy-minimize frustration, see observable change in pursuit of goals and dreams, and maybe earn a little karmic kick-back for what I’ve had to ensure from the bitch. Today? I’d be happy with a fist full of pills and a bottle of vodka. Tomorrow? This will just have been a bad day. C’est la vie.

Me: Wow. You’re headbanging to this song.
The Boy: Of course. I have the perfect hair for it; long and beautiful.

Uh. I have NO idea where he gets his modesty.

Just got called "the nicest jerk in the world" by The Boy. I’m still not quite sure how I feel about that yet.

Life is a journey. It is not a journey to a destination but a journey through a transformation. Anything less is a waste of a good road trip.

I want to get ridiculously drunk and be taken advantage of a small band of gypsy courtesans and their fire spinning male companions. I mean, I’m just sayin’ ..

I am amazed—but shouldn’t be—how focused things become and how the universe starts chattering around my headspace when the noise disappears and people-wasting-air fade into the background. It just makes creativity, study, and progress so much easier.

I’m still learning. I’m figuring out a life that matters only happens when I let my life speak for itself. I have many things I’d like to accomplish during the time I have left on this planet. That’s only going to happen when I let my deepest happiness intersect with the world’s deepest hunger.